I hate that I am too trusting. And I hate that I hate that Im too trusting.
I take people at face value and often I get burned.
We should be able to take what people say as truth and yet people lie, cheat and manipulate. What makes it worse is that I try my damnedest to be honest and open and I expect the same from others. So when I find that I have been misled it hurts that much worse.
Im getting better at being able to read people and trusting my instincts but it makes me sad that I cant be trusting all the time. That I have to work against my nature. That I have to watch what I say and do in front of certain people. Sometimes I hate that as much as I want to I cant be bitchy and nasty and deceptive right back at them.
I suppose that being trusting is not something that I should hate about myself. Perhaps I should be embracing that part of me!
I found this meme on PinkHairGirl’s blog and thought it was a great idea. So I am going to borrow it
Below is a list spanning 30 days, each day asking a question or setting a topic which must be answered truthfully. Not as easy as it seams but Im pretty sure it will be quite therapeutic.
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself