Helpless

I feel so helpless listening to Aaron crying.

For some reason he will not go to sleep, he just screams and screams, we try CIO, we try holding and rocking him, we try bottles, we try changing him… NOTHING works.

He wants to go in the car, we did that last week when he was so sick, now its all he wants.

I just feel so fucking useless when he wont come to me or be comforted by me.  At least he lets Paul hold him.

I wish he would just stop crying, just for a moment so that he would calm down enough to take the bottle.  I know he is tired, overly so, and this is why he is screaming but please Gd just let the crying stop!

A beginning…

I have been wanting, no, needing to start this blog.

Now that I am here, I have no idea what to say…