Weirded Out

Have you ever met someone and instantly felt the hairs on your arms rise up?  Then they speak and the hairs on the back of your neck join in.  After five minutes you just think to yourself, “dude, please don’t stand so close/talk to me/come anywhere near me”!

We have a new guy at work.  He freaks me out completely!  He is chatty and all about being my best friend, he is also old, much older than me, in his late 60’s old.  He does everything slowly and methodically and slowly.  He was hired as our new driver.  He hasn’t driven yet.  He is doing admin stuff like filing, slowly. He keeps coming to tell me what he has done and lands up talking for ten minutes about crap I have no interest in.  He seriously Freaks. Me. Out!!!!

I am not a sociable person, at least not with weird older guys at work.  I have friends, I have colleagues who are friends, I don’t need anymore.

Helpless

I feel so helpless listening to Aaron crying.

For some reason he will not go to sleep, he just screams and screams, we try CIO, we try holding and rocking him, we try bottles, we try changing him… NOTHING works.

He wants to go in the car, we did that last week when he was so sick, now its all he wants.

I just feel so fucking useless when he wont come to me or be comforted by me.  At least he lets Paul hold him.

I wish he would just stop crying, just for a moment so that he would calm down enough to take the bottle.  I know he is tired, overly so, and this is why he is screaming but please Gd just let the crying stop!

A beginning…

I have been wanting, no, needing to start this blog.

Now that I am here, I have no idea what to say…