After all the hype and all the excitement of planning and getting ready to move I’ve found myself sitting staring into space and feeling a little blue and lost on more than one occasion.
Its totally natural and understandable to have a bit of a crash. I’ve identified a few ‘triggers’ and having done so Im more aware of what sets me off, how to deal with it and also that all those ‘triggers’ are temporary.
Firstly, the fact that we are in a bit of limbo is an issue. The kids haven’t started school yet, we haven’t started Ulpan (hebrew lessons) yet and we don’t have jobs yet. We (I) need more of a routine. All temporary. We have a meeting with the school people tomorrow. im going to call the Ulpan lady tomorrow as well and jobs will come in time.
Also, even though we have an amazing apartment so we have a roof over our heads, we don’t have much furniture. I thank heavens we decided to buy new beds before we arrived and that my brother and husband worked exceptionally hard to set them up the first day we arrived so we have a place to sleep. I also brought our duvets, pillows and linen with us on the plane so we have our familiar things when we go to sleep. As for the rest of the furniture, living in an empty apartment is a bit soul destroying. No cupboards so our clothing is all on the floor in piles. No couches so no where to sit. No appliances and familiar cooking things. No pictures on the walls. This too is temporary, our lift should arrive in February and then all our ‘stuff’ will be here and the apartment will feel more like home.
We had all our bags and clothes and bits and pieces strewn all over the lounge which was making me very anxious. It looked messy and was making me cringe every time I saw it. Today Paul cleared it all up. He packed away all his clothes and the last few of mine. Aaron packed his clothes away (and buy pack away I mean place in piles in our bedrooms) and then Paul took all the clothes we wont be wearing now and placed them in the cases and put the cases in the laundry room. I am MUCH more calm now that the lounge is clear.
The ’empty’ kitchen is also an issue. Not being able to cook whatever I want whenever I want to is hard. We dont have a fridge, although we will be getting a small bar fridge this week hopefully, so keeping milk, meat and veggies cold is a problem. Although it is winter and so far small cartons of milk have been fine sitting on the counter. I bought us a meat pan and a milk pan and we have had eggs and toast a few times as well as baked potatoes and tuna mayo for lunch. We are using throw away plates and knives and forks but I will buy us a few proper things this week too as well as a milk pot and a meat pot so we can cook proper meals.
I think I just need to breathe and keep reminding myself that these issues are all temporary and that things will come together.
Here are some pics of the apartment 🙂 I will update them as the rooms come together.