My husband and son. I know it sounds cliche and maybe even a bit trite but after suffering from almost a year of post natal depression (and possible undiagnosed depression, relating to the death of my dad, before that), they are what kept me going.
In that year before being diagnosed with PND and going onto Cipralex, every time I thought about ending it, about how much easier it would be, not only for me but for everyone around me, I would stop and think to myself, but I need them, I need my husband and my son, I need the love that they give me.
They are what got me through the dark days and they are what made coming up from those downward spirals possible.
Their love for me and their unwavering support is what makes life worth living.
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
Thank you for being brave enough to discuss depression openly.
So awesome that you have such a wonderfully supportive husband.
this post resonated hugely with me
xx
I think so many women with PND feel like they failed as mothers somewhere along the line. I am glad you have the strength to talk about it, share with others and that you found a way to get through.
I think added to the depression is the fact that you don’t sleep well when you have a little one and the tiredness and all the newness of mommy-hood can be very overwhelming and exhausting. Thank you for sharing. And yes, my hubby and Baby Girl have also gotten me through a few hard moments. They are what make my life so worth while.