Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

*You can find the list of links of my full 30 Days of Truth here.

Yes, after Aaron was born I suffered from undiagnosed Post Natal Depression (PND) with an underlying depression caused by the death of my father.

There were times that I lay on the floor, sobbing and tearing at my hair when I thought to myself that me being the way I was wasn’t beneficial for anyone, least of all my newborn son.  It was in those dark dark spaces that I thought it would be better for everyone if I wasn’t around.

If it hadnt been for Paul, sitting next to me, holding my hand or hugging me tight and reminding me that he needed me, that he loved me, that our son needed his mother…

Who knows.

It took me a year to gain the courage to see someone and speak to them about what I was feeling.

That was two years ago.  I take a daily tablet that lessens my anxiety and makes me see that the ‘impossible’ things are actually possible, that they are achievable.  I still go to speak to my therapist, not as often as I used to but as often as I need to.

Im so glad that I did take that step to speak about what I was feeling.

6 Replies to “Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?”

  1. And this time you are prepared for it? I also had PND with the Princess – only discovered at 9 months, but I should have known. I had a major episode at 16 and several later in life. Just always be cautious.

  2. i went through almost the exact same thing with Shae. Am really hoping it either doesn’t happen or is not as severe with #TheMunchkin

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